member spotlight · july 2020.

would you ever go blonde?
you really wanna get your hands all over my head, don't you?

what's the worst thing you've ever done?
one of my friends is a cop, so answering this question could be wildly incriminating.

do you think people deserve a second chance?
most of the time. it really depends on the situation.

apple juice or orange juice?
apple juice always, but only because it's one step away from being cider.

do you like me?
sometimes. sometimes you're a brat.

if you could be immortal, would you be?
oh man. i think if everyone else around me were also immortal, then i'd consider it. and you'd think that me, the ultimate loner, would want to be immortal, right? because then i can just watch people live and die and i don't ever have to worry about long-lasting relationships or very many consequences. unless i was convicted for something heinous and sentenced to 3 lifetimes in prison.

i just want you to know that you look very good in black, not a question, don't post this, but i'd fuck you.

do you prefer the mornings, days, evenings or nights? why?
i prefer mornings, but i'm never really capable of enjoying them. i need copious amounts of coffee and nicotine to get me there. but on the rare occasion that i'm up and alive, i genuinely love a prodoctive morning and watching the city wake up.

what's your favorite non-alcoholic drink?
coffee and water, a cherry vanilla bang if the moment is right.

what dishes make up your perfect meal?
i'm a big time breakfast person, so hit me with that enormous breakfast any day. coffee, juice, fresh fruit, so much french toast with different syrups and toppings, toast, eggs, meat, beans, omlette. fuck me up.

Do you have any regrets?
fucking loads of 'em.

What's the one thing you want to change about this world besides covid and violence?
who said i wanted to change violence? do you even know me?

What’s the stupidest thing you’ve ever done?
i definitely tried to recreate an "i am a golden god" scenario and nearly fucking killed myself doing it.

Tell me a joke.
i don't tell jokes.

What's your favorite flavor ice cream?
there's this really good lemonade ice cream that has graham cracker in it.

What’s one thing you’re super passionate about?
foster care.

If you had to lose one of your five senses, which would you give up and why?
probably sight because 1. i've seen enough shit, and 2. i think i would be better off not seeing subtle changes in peoples expressions, or little injustices, or...anything else, really.

What’s the hardest thing, physically, you’ve ever done?
does battleworld ring a bell?

If you could have three wishes, what would they be?
i think i would use just one to wish that certain people could see themselves the way i see them. and if i had to use three separate wishes for that, then i'd wish ana, tim and ro could see themselves the way i see them. i'd say ryan, steph and walker have a decent idea already.

If you could have a full 24 hours without any work or obligations, a day to just do whatever you wanted, what would you do?
i literally would not do a thing.

What’s the hardest thing, mentally, you’ve ever done or been through?
i've been struggling a lot lately with specific insecurities of mine. i have a lot of inferiority issues, abandonment issues, jealousy, etc. so trying to navigate through all of that while maintaining healthy relationships (as best as i can at the moment) has been a really big struggle for me.

What’s the best part about your job?

What’s one thing that defines who you are?
my past.

when did you first start wearing guyliner
when you left it on the bathroom sink.

what's your most embarrassing memory
hanging upside down from a tree by my pants when i was 7.

what's your favorite thing about your roommate
there's honestly so few things, but she makes good coffee and feeds the cats when i'm not around.

what would your "last meal" consist of
i'm not sure i can give you an appropriate answer.

what's something surprising you really like
ru paul's drag race. and furthermore, aj and the queen.

what are you going to do with that watermelon?
eat it, you heathen.

what is something you refuse to do?
go to space. which is fine because the opportunity will never arise.

if you could remove one mundane task or responsibility from adulthood what would it be?
paying bills or cleaning bathrooms.

what is your most peaceful memory?
the fact that absolutely nothing comes to mind should tell you something. i guess knowing that after my step-mom died, she wouldn't be in pain anymore from withdrawals or the other shit she went through.

how do you decompress?
run away.

what's your life motto?
when life gives you lemons, you give life c4.